Well, I went to the doctor yesterday, and as of now, my c-section is scheduled for next Tuesday at 7:30am. So, if my amniocentesis says she can come, then this time next week, I will have 3 babies! Wow! We have been a family of 4 for so long! I know it is going to be a big difference, but I wonder just how different it will be. Will I go completely insane?
And I am worried about Tatiana. Cashion is used to having a younger sibling, he has gone through this before, years ago, but still. Tatiana, on the other hand, she is used to being the baby. She likes being the baby. I expect her to be jealous. But just how bad, I don't know.
Last night, we were talking about when I have to go to the hospital next week. They are going to be staying with my sister and her family. She has two boys, who are all boy. Cashion can't wait! A house with no doll houses or easy bakes! LOL! He, I know, will be fine. Tatiana, I'm not so sure. She love to visit her Aunt Kim. And she loves her cousins. Plus, they have two inside cats, which Tatiana wants to bring home and make her own pets. But, she is a Mama's girl. From the moment I told them that they would be having a little brother or sister, we told them that they would be staying at Kim's house when it was time for me to stay at the hospital. They have been fine, until now. Last night, in the bathtub, no less, Tatiana started panicking. Tears flowed down her cheeks. I reminded her how much fun she was going to have with Kim, Zach, and Dylan. Plus, she adores my brother-in-law. So I reminded her that she would be able to play with him also. "Oh and you can play with the cats everyday!" Her response, "I don't care about the stupid cats, I just want you!"
Well, if you know me, I don't let my kids say stupid,dumb, or any other word like that. I was blown away. I couldn't believe the way she was reacting to this. I don't know what I am going to do when next week gets here and she has to stay away from me. I am scared to death. How is she going to react when there is another baby in the house that she has to share Mommy with? It's bad enough that she has to share me with Torrey and Cashion. How bad is it going to be when there is a little baby who has to have a lot of mommy's attention? What am I going to do?